An old journal entry

My pain is so hard to put into words some days...

Have you ever had such a strong paper cut that you bleed so much you have to continue changing your band aids? But there's still pain after changing each bandage. There's a constant sting!!!!! And you wonder when will you heal when does this pain go away?!?!?!?

You examine the wounds from all angles TRYING to see how in the world did this happen again!!!! You question yourself how could I have been so neglectful? You think I would've learned from my last cut not to do it like that again! I seen all the signs..peeped all the warnings! I seen it coming!!!! But I just turned my head....😔

I refuse to feel like I'm bleeding to my death!!!! And try to analyze where I went wrong then try to get the strength to put another band-aid on my heart. The minute I say I'm going to stop messing with paper...it happens all over again 😔😒😞

But everytime I endure the pain the stinging gets worse and worse, longer and even longer....

Why must I hurt? I don't want to feel the pain! God please choose another victim!!!!!!