Random Thoughts

I close my eyes tight trying to remember what it was like just to hug you, just to touch you and say your name during the thrust of our sweet lust. I miss you so much...

I'd do anything just to feel your touch.  I love you in every way a woman can love a man... 

Unconditionally...

Passion

First word that comes to mind when you see this picture is what????

Passion....So I seen this picture and it made me think... 

Have I ever experienced that "moment" of complete passion. The moment he looks you in your eyes! Not down your shirt ladies lol...

And he gives you that "look" and begins to kiss you gracefully with force but with such a tenderness that your left with your  mouth wide the fuck open!!!!!!! (Yup movie shit)

Have you ever kissed someone that made your pussy tingle with every nibble..suck..moan and touch!!!

Did he place his hands on all the right places? Grabbing your face to look into your eyes, holding the middlemofnyour back pulling you in closer...only to YES grab your ass!!!! Showing you "yes it's you that I want...this moment right now..it's urgent then a MUTHAFUCKA!!!! Kiss me!!" Woooooooo!!!!!!!

I recently spoke to a friend that told me her man wasn't even that attractive to her! But when they finally were intimate it was so filled with passion!!! 

They did wait some time, getting to know each other talk and really just be friends first! We get so wrapped up in trying see what "that mouth like" (men and women) 

We forget about the basics! A touch the RIGHT WAY can send your partner running up the wall!!!! 

Anyone can work that mouth and make you cum...But will the "experience" leaving you telling your friends that it "nothing you ever experienced" it was "REAL" 

I read once that "if she don't act crazy..you ain't doing it right" 

Well do it right and make the crazy come out!!!! Go back to the basics.

Love n War...

What people don't know about me is I may get a bottle of wine and literally drink my self to sleep.. It eases the pain somedays. I realized today that if my Father didn't want to fuck with me all my life ( the ultimate hurt) I can get past any other hurt some random guy comes by and presents me. Love is a fucked  up drug that will make you think you  can go on the roof top of a building yelling "fuck the world don't ask me for shit" it's me and my baby against the world!!!! But a as soon as your baby fucks up.... You wanna throw your self off that same rooftop!!!!

We've all held on to someone we love. Does this make you stupid.. Naive?

 I don't think so..

This builds your wall. I personally think we should all have one. It's okay to have some trials this will only help you build character. The song Love and War is a perfect example of how you go thru the ups and downs in a relationship. 

Women fight harder then men. At the end if the day this is why women are stronger then men (my opinion) 

No love is perfect.. And wants a perfect love story anyway?.. Cliche'

This is only a part of y'all story.. The war to only have hot, passionate life changing make up sex!!! (Yay!)

At the end of the day if the same person you went to that rooftop yelling about is the sameone trying to talk you down when you feel like throwing your self off.. Then keep fighting!  Real love is worth the fight.

Love is necessary... We need it to strive.

My biological didn't bother

Dear Dad

Dear Dad  or really what should I call you??? 

No really tell me.. What should I call you.. See I know your name is George lol (what a corny name!)  I've even called you "just a sperm donor" but that doesn't ease my pain.

You see one of my only memories of you.. Is you hitting my mom full blown straight to her face as tho she were a man! Telling her she had no place to listen on that call you just made to your mistress. That same mistress that you had another child with! Fuck we found out. thru MySpace that we had the same name!!!! Then found out that we even had the same blood running they our veins!!!

She contacted me thru a msg one summer saying "hey sis smiley face"

All this time I thought it was me and George Jr (what a corny name)

I never thought there was anybody else experiencing this pain. 

She said "I'm the love child.. Pleasure to meet you" 

So yo come to find out George has fathered 5!!! 

I used to be mad and really hate you now when I pray.. I pray God don't take you.. And to heal my hurt.... See I've always had that inner lil girl who's wanted to make her Daddy proud Which is weird cuz I really don't know if I'd even really like you? It's crazy cause I'm a  lil like you which Is why I never liked myself till maybe like 2003?

I hated you and inturn really hated me..all this shit was actually pre destined for me?!?!

They say in order to move forward past your hurt. You have to forgive. Forgetting that's another story. I've learned to truly forgive because of you. Thanks! I would be lying if I said I have or even will forget. Ive let go. Ive let God and ive forgiven. Besides YOU..this has only made me stronger only because my biological didn't bother. 

Now in no way am I bashing you, I'm only stating the facts and telling my story. 

Hurt comes with the healing..

The Three C's

In a recent conversation about giving "FaceTime" (oral sex)male or female. A group of us got to talking.. We talked about how "spitters were quitters" which my girl Janel MissBlondecurls Williams (missblondecurls.blogspot.com)will be giving her take on.

My three C's

Care for it-Men was your balls! FLAT OUT!!! There's nothing worse then us going down on you and we get to the twins an we find lint or something down there! Or its smells like soap and water  havent touch that part of your body in weeks!!WTF!!!! Lol 

Ladies- Shave!!! Flat out!!!! Survey says  men like it bald BUT if your going keep some hair down there (to each it's own) make sure it's tirmed up for good ness sake! Nobody wants your hair stuck in their teeth!!! Gross!!! Keep your garden cut low and tirmed nicely.  Good hygiene can make or break a sexual experience. Make them walk away saying Damn that was good and not Damn that was gross!!!!!

Conquer it-DON'T BE LAZY!!!!! Put in that work! Give him or her a reason to want you to touch their love below again and again if only for that reason alone! Moan, groan, talk shit! Stroke that ego!!! Just as good as this feels to you I love sucking it! Guys LOVE IT!!! Men you have to do the same now.. Moan.. Groan look up at us OH cause were looking at you! Lol tell me how good my pussy taste to you.

Crave it- I think the most important one! You should want to please him/her. Get on your knees and do it! FOR NO REASON!!!!!! Blow their mind. Right before work when they getting ready, (SO MUCH FUN) they'll be rushing home for round #2

There should always be that animal attraction for your partner that makes you want them at the drop of a dime. Even when their not in the mood... Shit I am so give it up big daddy! LOL

At the end if the day, we all want to feel wanted emotionally and definitely sexually. Don't fake it! If something's wrong adjust it, if it can't be fixed well then that's for you to decide to move on or not. Living by the three C's will have you curling toes...making babies..making memories and most importantly having fun and a good healthily sexual experience.

 

Roller Coasters

Dictionary.coms definition of a roller coaster is such: any phenomenon, period, or experience of persistent or violent ups and downs, as one fluctuating between prosperity and recession or elation and despair.

Rewind!!!! Persistent or violent ups and downs... So who the hell thinks this is fun??? Maybe at Kings Island.. This is fun. But what I'm referring to is life's roller coasters. Something we have all experienced at one point and time. That woman/man that you just couldn't let go of that had your nose WIDE OPEN!!!!


Yea think about it.. They had your nose wide open.. First step is admitting you have a problem. I used to tell my ex (my biggest roller coaster ride) lol that baby when were good were great but when were bad.. Well it's BAD!!! We had our ups and downs for sure... But why couldn't I get off this ride?!?! Why can't we let go of the despair?!?!

Why:
We're comfortable..
Scared we won't find the actual "right person" for us.
Think we don't deserve better
Some of us just like the excitement of the up and down


If you knew better you would do better..right? NO!!!!!!
So some of us give our friends the best advice. (I'd like I think I'm one of them lol) but when it comes to your own life decisions. It's fuck you don't judge me... I LOVE YOU JODY!!!!! LMAO!!!!
We've all done it.. No judgement here. Just keep this in mind insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly expecting a different result. Don't expect the ride to end unless your really ready to get off! Cause if you come back for another ride don't expect it to be any easier then the first couple times you went up and down and all around.
When your insane you usually have to seek help!!!!!! I won't get into the help part that much because depending on the person there are different ways to approach this.

Truth is you'll only get off the ride when your finally ready. Fuck what your friends an family say its really on YOU!!!!
When your tired of the up and down and even dealing with the aftermath (which is the biggest part) THE HURT!!!!! Lets be real when your tired of being burned you'll wise up and wear a oven mitten before you try retrieving something else from the damn oven.

That can be taken different ways.... You decide how it fits your roller coaster ride.
Hector Lavoe said it best "todo tiene su finale" use your translator app for that :-)


Besos..

Hope

So I met a guy today.. Who is first of all not a virgin but has had a girlfriend for the past four years (offically... theyve been together dor seven total) and has respected her wishes to be celibate.
He was honest and said I'm very attracted to her.. But "she's worth the wait" he looked me straight in my eyes and said this with such passion!!! You seen how genuine and sincere he was. He told me a little bit about how she had been hurt.. used and abused in the past. Therefore on her part their maybe some trust issues (my opinion)

But yet here's a man willing to not per say break down those walls she may have up but.. Say fuck you I'm tearing these mutha fuckers DOWN!!! WOOOOO!!!
He continued on about how much he "has it good" she supports him and is loyal to him. He was honest and said look I'm gone off her already imagine when were married ( yes he wants to marry her) and I get to actually be with her! It's going be SO MUCH MORE THEN A FUCK!!! We WILL MAKE LOVE!!!!!
He continued to explain that they have different forms of intimacy, which is deeper then any sexual experience.
In asking him one question.. He got so emotional and giddy about his one day "wife" he just continued to tell me his plan to do it all right in Gods eyes.
He said I have debt I want to clear that up first..buy her a nice ring and be in a position where she will not have to worry about a thing!
I wish my friends would've seen this Gentlemen's excitement about her.. He was so serious... He gave me hope!!!!
As a non married woman that's the one thing were always doing "screening" guys to see if their full of shit or just looking for a a regular cutty buddy. Trying to see his heart.. Is he sincere about liking me or telling me what he thinks I need to hear in order to get what HE may want at that time....or is this it will he step out my dreams and make it a reality.

Plain and simple folks theres hope.. Keep the faith...pray...and most importantly your where your at because God has you here to prep you for the blessing first!!!

The rain made me do it

I close my eyes and can smell your neck.. I lick your chest all the way down.. Your flitching only tells me you like it.. You grab me tighter as you breath harder. The extra stiffness in your jeans continues to call my name..."please just touch me" I get closer and can feel its pluse.
I oblige and touch you..your moans make my pussy wet with warm and fuzzy feelings tingling my body.
You grab my hair back only to look me right in my eyes as I slide you in my mouth... Mmmm is all you hear.
No hands just my wet mouth all over you... I choke on it on purpose just cause.. You like that shit. Slurp... Sucking you harder n deeper

Lovvvvvvvveeeeeeeee

Love...
LOL!!! So a FB status the other day has inspired this. This guy replies to my friends status as to what LOVE is.. And it made me think.... ALOT!

Wtf is love???? The common answer would be the bible verse.
I used to say "love is pain" and sometimes it really is..
But love is un describable!!!!
To a teenager it's staying up till 3am on the phone not wanting to hang up. "No you hang up" "no you hang up" calling the time an weather just to make sure the phone doesn't ring (so you don't get caught by your parents) LOL
But this guy said love is not being apart.. But enduring the downs to stand up together!!! Don't quote me.. His own words are attached lol
When I read his words it hit me!!! This makes sense. Who can say they love someone that they haven't "been thru it with" your childhood friend.. Your momma .. Your own child cause I'm sure them nine months was something to talk about for sure!!!!! But that in and out of jail ex if yours... Ups n downs!!!!! Wooooo
I used to tell me ex when we good baby we GREAT!!!! But when it's bad it's ALLL BAD!!!!! But at the end if the day that's why we loved eachother so much because we both made the decision to ride it out thru ALOT!

And all tho we want to show we're that "ride or die" the biggest lesson I've learned "is be true to self first" NOONE will ever love you better then you can love yourself!!!
#PERIOD I should pass the collection plate on that note!!!! Lol but real talk a person can only take so much know when it's time to let go!!!!!!
This isn't just for my ladies some of my fellas too!!! Ya like to hold on too! Trying to turn hoes into house wives and some of the ratchet into rich an famous!!!!
Ladies ... Well I won't even start on us!!! We were made to love and hold a mutha f$&ker down during hard times!!!!
But again baby girl look within inside your self an know when it's time to try harder or press forward towards something better.

Don't get me wrong I'm still that ride or die but I refuse to die for ANYBODY AND RIDE WITH JUST ANYBODY.. Anymore lol. Life lessons...
Experience it..Learn from it and Apply it!!!



Besos!!!!

Encouragement

So u woke up this morning feeling so kind of way.. Not sure what or why.. Just know I needed to pray and get in Gods presence this morning.

I turn on the radio and all these encouraging songs came on just reminding me that God is in control. That this wasn't it. So what I've been here before an the God that got me out last time is the same God that would bring me out yet again. When it looks bad.. Real bad that's when he's up to something. It's so easy to get discourage an let the enemy have his way in your life and take your joy.
This is when you have to step up your faith and WALK maybe even RUN. With just one thing in mind God knows the plans he has for us! We may not know the plan but just know when it seems like your going fall.. Go ahead and fall back Gods there to catch you.. Stand you back up and start you back on your way.