My biological didn't bother

Dear Dad

Dear Dad  or really what should I call you??? 

No really tell me.. What should I call you.. See I know your name is George lol (what a corny name!)  I've even called you "just a sperm donor" but that doesn't ease my pain.

You see one of my only memories of you.. Is you hitting my mom full blown straight to her face as tho she were a man! Telling her she had no place to listen on that call you just made to your mistress. That same mistress that you had another child with! Fuck we found out. thru MySpace that we had the same name!!!! Then found out that we even had the same blood running they our veins!!!

She contacted me thru a msg one summer saying "hey sis smiley face"

All this time I thought it was me and George Jr (what a corny name)

I never thought there was anybody else experiencing this pain. 

She said "I'm the love child.. Pleasure to meet you" 

So yo come to find out George has fathered 5!!! 

I used to be mad and really hate you now when I pray.. I pray God don't take you.. And to heal my hurt.... See I've always had that inner lil girl who's wanted to make her Daddy proud Which is weird cuz I really don't know if I'd even really like you? It's crazy cause I'm a  lil like you which Is why I never liked myself till maybe like 2003?

I hated you and inturn really hated me..all this shit was actually pre destined for me?!?!

They say in order to move forward past your hurt. You have to forgive. Forgetting that's another story. I've learned to truly forgive because of you. Thanks! I would be lying if I said I have or even will forget. Ive let go. Ive let God and ive forgiven. Besides YOU..this has only made me stronger only because my biological didn't bother. 

Now in no way am I bashing you, I'm only stating the facts and telling my story. 

Hurt comes with the healing..