Complicated

The guilt I feel anytime I unlock my IPad bc I smile like its the very moment you brought me the flowers for my birthday.

Yes its my screen saver..As much as I have said..I'm leaving you alone ..then there's that
 "good morning love" text when its been too long that we haven't spoken ..I smile... I laugh...
I close my eyes ..to feel you for the very first time all over again...

Do you remember?

I fought and fought until I couldn't any more..the very actual first time was amazing!

I relive those hours in my head any moment I get...

It was an unknown chemistry that I didn't even know existed..your smile..your wink..your touch..your  every assurance of us from every moan...is why..I ...just cant....turn... my... back on you.

But...one day...I WILL!

One day....

Thank you

The thunder is the unheard cries of my broken heart..

The screams only held by my pillow..

The tears only seen by me myself and I...

The rain that follows are the tears cried for you..

The rumble of the thunder is my unleashed anger..wishing you could be located and struck at least once to feel what I’ve felt.

The wet, damp, heavy exhausting walk thru all your bull shit but yet somehow finding the strength to continue goin...not for “US” but for ME! 

Thanking you for showing me my own strength. 

Good Morning

She said: "I wanna lick your pussy.
WOW! all this before 10 a.m., now I don't but time restrictions on sex BUT DAMN!
So you woke up thinking about how much you want me? (I smile)
She further told me how she thought about me all night.
My thoughts, went to her hands right in between her carmel toned thighs, right two fingers in her pussy and left hand squeezing her dime sized nipples. The arch in her back shows me just how much she wants me. Watching her and thinking about "our last time" has me wet and wanting her even more then ever! I wanted her to show me everything she was imaging in our mind fuk.
She said: Kiss me like you miss me and fuk me like you love me
Have you ever fuked someone while looking them deep in their eyes? Until you get them to squirt their soul on the sheets.
Shes loud..shes wet... and loving every minute of this!
Kissing..fuking and sucking...she cant hold on to the feeling of pure ecstasy...she cums.
We kiss..
Good Morning.

Valentine...

Dear Valentine,

Wait wtf does it mean to be someone's Valentine? You should Google that.

Dear Valentine,

Really tho where you? We too old (at least I am) for hide n seek!

Dear Valentine,

I went to my 1st NBA game this weekend!!! (Pause) without you! See you play too much! 

Dear Valentine,

Don't buy me chocolates...it's a waste of your money unless your buying the week before Aunt Flow! Then you about to get about 15 xtra cool points!

P.S. Baby Ruth or Whatchamacallit 

Dear Valentine,

I've written you love letters so many times, with no send to: addr or name.

Check my "Notes" in my phone 

Dear Valentine,

I promise to still write you because honestly..writing really frees me...

You'll learn a lot about me thru my lines..don't read in between them. 

Dear Valentine, 

You should see what I bought for you and me shit! It's comin off either way so we'll both benefit from it.

Dear Valentine,

Hey baby 😏 whatcha name is? 

Unexpected...

I read "our horoscope" tonight..

It said that we may "NEVER" know the outcome but know that the feelings they were always mutual...

It just wasn't "our" time...

Even in present situations there may be "love" however it will NEVER trump

The natural 

"passion and devotion"

That we felt when we look at eachother

The craving...

The look...

The smell

The taste...

The feel...

Of it all..

It could "NEVER" replace the natural connection...that we never knew even existed.

It's that "unexpected find" from 

"New Uses" that has me on a "high" and ready to show you off...

Scratch n Dent

Love me like my dad loves the scratch n dent section at Sams.

See...that look only tells me that you never shopped in this section before..

Take note...

Scratch n dent means... Imperfections...HOWEVER the function has NOT been comprised!

Ignore every foul label that has "tried" reduce my value...

NEVER look at me and see how he literally put that "dent" in my forehead..or took me home and tried me out for those 80 days only to return me right before that 90 day return policy ran out..

NEVER treat me like I'm damaged goods...

Take note...

And know this... Just like the last one who couldn't get a "true price" off my sticker...it's about how you handle anything that's  imprefect..

That you will recognize my true value.

Praying Man_tisssssss

He asked ..why do you stick your tongue out and touch your food before you taste it...

Me: You should say "hello" before you "devour" someone 

What happens after hello?

The quick awkward stare down 

"How you doing?" 

Damn am I savage "for real?"

Men do it..why can't I?

Cut-throat..