You don't have to like it....

I certainly used to wish that I was skinny, lighter-skinned, with long, pretty hair. But only because I used to get made fun of for being the absolute opposite. I didn't see all of that stuff as the American Dream. I just wanted to look normal. Now that I'm older, I really do feel like I am a beautiful girl
~Gabourey Sidibe~

 

Just five years ago I was over 275lbs and unhappy! I hated Shawntay...I walked around and no one knew the everyday pain of looking in the mirror saying to yourself "YUCK who would want you"

As a child I was teased and bullied some for being fat too. In elementary there was a group of boys that would call me "earthquake" the wrestler. In middle school the attention I got was because my boobs were bigger then my friends.

When my niece was finally born I thought damn I really need to get my life together. I want to run around after her and be able to go up the stairs, play with her and just be an all-around good example to her. Not just physically either but emotionally. It all starts in the mind! I started school I started working out, speaking life TO MYSELF! In the mist of all this I was in a relationship and honestly he was very verbally abusive to me and did nothing but had me fighting myself mentally about my determination to be a better me. 

 

I say all this to say...I say this ONCE and ONLY ONCE. IF YOU DONT LIKE IT DONT LOOK. UNFRIEND ME! I’ve seen...heard. And can only imagine the comments made about some of my racy and sensual pics with my photographer S/O to Welch3Photography by the way! But I’ve worked DAMN HARD to be able to look at myself and say Shawntay "You may not be a size 2 BUT you are sexy you are beautiful" I may push the envelope some… But in reality, how is it hurting you??? I’m not sucking, fucking or stripping for money, I don’t have 5 kids with different dads..I’m expressing myself FREELY and LEGALLY!!! So again if you've NEVER walked ONE MILE in my shoes NOT only DO NOT UNDERSTAND! But simply STFU!!!! I mean that will due love and respect. 

Peace and love